Choose Your Hard

So you have to ask yourself, are you satisfied with where you currently are? In terms of your body. Is it a chore just to get out the bed? When you walk up and down the stairs are you out of breath? Does your knees hurt? The bottom of your feet hurt? Lower back hurt? Is your stomach hanging over your pants? I’m clearly talking about myself because ya’ll super fit these days, extra healthy. But me, a big boy like me, that reached 260 prior to the pandemic, I’m feeling all that. It’s so difficult being tired all the time. I FEEL like I’m lazy, but I KNOW I’m not lazy. I know I feel this way because of the food that I’m consuming. Because of all the extra pounds that I’m carrying around. That’s what’s been holding me down and holding me back from really going after it. But the thing about it is I, like you, have to choose my hard. Because working out is hard. Dieting is hard. But when you live with a body that you don’t like, that’s the hardest thing ever. I don’t know about y’all, but when I have that extra weight on me, my mood changes. My self-esteem lowers. I’m definitely not myself. So I go to the gym because I try to get back to who I am. The hard part for me is always the eating. I’m like anybody else, when I become overwhelmed, I eat because it makes me feel better. Especially sugar. Sugar takes me to where I need to go. But sugar is the most damaging substance to our body. Probably the most damaging substance known to man. Sugar is on par with addiction producing substances like cocaine, but it’s legal. And it leads to all the side effects that are killing us today. Diabetes, high blood pressure, just being overweight in general. So, I must become committed. I have to make a commitment to myself, a commitment to work hard at one of the two. Either I’m going to work hard at losing this weight and gaining the body that I truly want, a body that I know I can live with. Or I’m going to work hard to continue to stay exactly where I’m at. And be sleepy all the time. Roll up out the bed. Have lower back pain. Have my feet hurt, my knees hurt. Be out of breath just walking up the stairs. If you can accept yourself like that then more power to you. But if you, like I, can’t, then do what’s hard, change, become committed to change. Be committed to this hard work. It is hard. But remember that after the hard work, the reward is more work. Thank you for reading my truth and examining your own.